Tonight’s Music

Posted: February 12, 2011 in Music


who could call my name without regretting?
who could see beyond this my darkness?
and for once save their own prayers
who could mirror down just a little
of their sun?
how could this go so very wrong
that I must depend on darkness?
would anyone follow me further down?
how could this go so very far
that I need someone to say
what is wrong, not with the world,

…but me

who could call my name without regretting?
who could promise to never destroy me?
tonight my head is full of wishes
and everything I drink is full of this

katatonia

Dream Oblivion

Posted: February 11, 2011 in Music


He takes a stand – And looks his enemy in the eye – This goes no further

I have the upper hand – This ends on my terms – I challenge non-existence – Every single day

The End of mind – End of freedom – End of everything

A most violent event – Breaks individuality – And turns out your shadow

In devastating light – That push against our eye – Dance to the bloodsong – In dream oblivion

He makes a point – Of sticking to the lie – This is the last time – I’m now done with this – I carry my nothing – Every single day

The end of mind – End of freedom – End of everything

Now with reality on end – The fall of all morality – Dance to the bloodsong

In devastating light – That push against our eye – Dance to the bloodsong – In dream oblivion

The End of faith – End of meaning – End of everything

dt

Outrage

Posted: February 10, 2011 in Music

Cool calm and all collected?

Try hide that hate from here
Let go pass by unaffected?
For what reason you choose
To never expose
Resolute in denying emotions
It s there weather like it or not
Lash out hun make it atrocious
One shot!
Show for what you lack
Spill your guts now don t hold it back
C’mon bring it on and let me feel it
I want that teenage rampage, mayhem and outrage
C’mon scream it out til I believe it
We need that front page outrage alright
Make it bleed between the lines
Cold… Cold calm and disconnected
Fine line between heaven and hell
Today determines tomorrow
Ya all get just what I say
We said
Let go give in to the moment
Lash out in a violent display
My time, your time to go when
Rise up
Show for what you got
Ready to burn then rip it out
C’mon bring it on and let me feel it
I want that teenage rampage, mayhem and outrage
C’mon scream it out til I believe it
We need that front page outrage alright
Make it bleed between the lines

 

my new favorite song of the week. sistersin

in turn

Posted: February 9, 2011 in Brainal Leakage

for he who only speaks it, can not truly know it , and he who knows it, can not convey it in words, to postpone the punishment due, at the blight of others, a cowards choosing, he must reveal his true self, in the face of adversity, in turn, he must take his place on the cross, he will never question his choice, there will be no recognition, there will be no appreciation, there is no reward for repairing that which was first unbroken, and those spared, will never know the pain he now holds inside, the sacrifice unspoken, the screams unheard, the twisting never felt…and days will pass, but the remnants will always remain, beneath he harbors the war within, on the surface  a steady calm, a smile in knowing, a rejoice in being, a satisfaction in perfecting, to what does he owe this, to all but himself, he forever lives undeserving, forever owing, and never to forget. sm

sunrises…

Posted: February 8, 2011 in Brainal Leakage

the sunrises, and for once, i rise with it. today is a special day. when i conquer my biggest weakness, i will no longer be limited by myself. the world is mine for the taking, and take it i shall. open mind, open eyes, open doors. maybe it is time. time to decide, time to be what i am supposed to be, not what i have allowed myself to become. as i grow from the inside out, i realize my place in life, in others lives. as i answer all the questions that create doubts and distort my focus, with answers etched in stone, my path becomes clear. as the path lights up, i can move in the right direction once again. i pick up the remnants of what this is, salvage what i can and leave behind what only weighs me down. for this i am better, but this is not the place for me to stay. and i move on.  so let the path weave, and stray, but never let us lose ground on our destination. our purpose. our journey. rise and fall…and rise again. beat me down and break me, i remain…it resonates with me…it motivates me and it keeps me out of the darkest of holes where many go to die. not i. surely..not i. i accept this challenge, taking the wildest bull by the horns, perseverance in the face of sure demise. not on this day, i will not lay down.  let this new build take his place. maybe, it’s time. sm

Inheritence

Posted: February 7, 2011 in Music


Our inconvenient burden
It could be lifted off of us
If we gave up
To finally let go
Of the free will that we were given
Our graves
Above the timberline
Our name chalked
The pressure of wealth
No longer found

The unforgiving void
The forge in which our values burn
The resting leech
Our thinning minds
In my abstinence I turn to nothing

Our graves
Above the timberline
Our name chalked
The pressure of wealth
No longer found

Let them inherit this fire now

Lest they will forget that

We were…ever here

katatonia

nothing grows

Posted: February 7, 2011 in Music

Dead Meadow

All alone at last
Years roll by so fast
Twisted and insane
The house you built
No longer the same

Once you’re there
Once you’re there
You can’t come back
Nothing lives
Nothing grows
Inside the dead meadow

Months keep rolling by
Live another day, then you die
ghosts inside your head
we choose our paths
when all is done and said

Once you’re there
Once you’re there
You can’t come back
Nothing lives
Nothing grows
Inside the dead meadow

black label society.

this is a nice song, but very dark and deep. i descend here when i need my strength. to be the one…the one for all…the one for me. it’s hard to be so strong. where do the strong go when they need? nowhere is turns out. you just absorb it…dust yourself off and move on. for me, the music speaks my words, conveys my mood, and hardens my foundation…”no time for feeling sorry, i got here on my own” and if my time never comes…i hope i was someone else’s time. i will emerge unscathed…unbroken…unseen and leave a better world behind me.